With the highs comes the lows.

Life giveth and life taketh.

Or more accurately, when things are going well, you know at some point luck will change. 

Two weeks ago, life was going pretty well, by and large my research was heading in a positive direction (which made the weekends at uni worth while), i was managing all my different roles and finding time to eat right and exercise plenty.

This week. Everything has came to a screeching halt. Science no longer works, for no reason (i swear this stuff is voodoo sometimes), all my different roles to fulfil have became a pain in the posterior and even worse, eating right and exercising plenty had came to a full STOP! 

So things that have faltered:

• Cell culture - I'm actually trying to  kill cells, yet the buggers live
• PCRs - I want these to show life, yet they are dead
• Injured - i've injured an ankle at judo two weeks ago, it doesn't want to heal
• Energy - all my energy has abandoned me, so now i eat all the wrong food (cyclic this one i know)
• Sleep - what is sleep?? don't even have children for the excuse of not getting any sleep
• Death  - sadly my great aunt has passed away, the impact here is not so much on me, for i didn't know her all that well, though what i knew of her i really liked..funny, warm hearted, caring and always interested in what i was doing with my life, the impact here is on my, who has many happy childhood memories with her on the family farm. 

Of these, the ones affect me the most is the lack of sleep, if i'm not rested then i have no energy, i don't eat right and i don't exercise enough, which granted is painful anyway (soft tissue injuries 

really suck - if anyone knows how long these take to heal, i'd be grateful for that info). The rest (apart from death) is just science. 

It is all frustrating, the lack of energy in particular. It drives me nuts. I always feel like i should be striving for more and achieving my full potential, and yet when i have no energy i fall into a really slump. And then i fall into the trap of feeling like a real failure. Giving up and running away feels like a real prospect. 

In conclusion, this blog post has no purpose, but was a good format for me to vent. 

Night all....i hope you all have more positive things going on in life!